This is for all you college kids; you'll understand.

So I decided I would try to take the easy/fast way out of Educational Psychology and sign up for a weekend class option this semester. I can go to class from like 5:00 to 10:00 on Friday nights, then 8:00 to 6:00 on Saturdays. I do that for 3 weekends in a row, get it over with and BAM only 4 classes that I have to worry about opposed to my normal 5 for the rest of the semester. Only 4 Finals. Only 2 days a week. I'm set right!? Well I continued to think so when my teacher emailed us like an hour before class saying that she might be a little late. When she's late on the first day you KNOW it can't be that bad. Then she makes it to class. We introduce ourselve's and it's obvious she's evaluating out every move because she follows every response we give her with "hmmmmm" then another question. He cell phone rings in the middle of class, she looks at us and says.. "oh, and technology is always welcome in my class." I'm thinking WOW -- this is great. Great in fact until when one lady's turn comes around for her to introduce herself she takes like 30 min. I tried to stay positive because this is like a 5 hour class, so 30 min of no work I could handle.... That is until it gets out of control. I started a tally. Yes, a "talking tally" is actually what I titled it on my paper. It looked a little something like this.

The numbers just kept adding up. I added a tally mark every single time she spoke out randomly, interrupted the teacher, or did her very loud annoying laugh. Her marks added up to around 50 or so...But just wait, that's not anywhere close to where this story ends. She has on some sort of tank top with a button up shirt over it. Which is perfectly fine... fine until she puts her hand up her tank, for whatever reason?, letting a roll loose from underneath. This isn't a fat comment either. I have a roll, actually I have almost 2 rolls -- HOWEVER -- I keep mine concealed underneath a shirt of somesort. The entire class lost it. People were pulling out their phones to try and get pictures, and I literally laughed until I cried. Needless to say -- out teacher suggested we take a break while the poor women acted as if she had no idea anything was happening.

Unfortunately the talking and the belly roll on the loose in the room was the most exciting thing about this class. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I've come to find that in every class there will be at least that one person that thinks they're too smart to be there, or someone that has absolutely all the time in the world to just sit there and think of possible questions to ask the professor. Either way I must suffer through to accomplish my goals and reach my dreams. I'll tough it out. 

For all of those students that have all the patience in the world, Kudos to you :)

My happy medium...

Like books, don't judge a person by their apperance - just as all of us know that you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover.

there are all sorts of people out there. 

this is me   ---->
what do you see?
judging by my cover, lets see maybe you see that:
-i have brown hair, that is neatly done, which maybe you can conclued that i'm very organized and put together, not true.
-i have my nails are done, which may make you think that girly? which in fact again isn't entirely true,
-i'm outside. i like the outdoors? yes that one is right.
so we're 1 for 3....

But then i have the think about what all your missing about this picture and this day. I had the brilliant idea to get pictures made for mom on mothers day one year. Nikki Taylor took this. Tyler was watching because he got into some pictures with me.

Then there is this picture. What would you make out of this one? A few more things? That i'm fun, loving, outgoing, silly, not-so serious? This is a little more "spot on" but I can't go around in my everyday life jumping up and down, skipping around and sticking my tongue out at people -- because then people would just judge me as crazy.

I've said all of that to say this, you never know who or what you're dealing with. You need to take the time to realize the true person someone really is on the inside. Being a 19 year old female has proved to me through the years that TEENAGE GIRLS are the world's worst at saying "i don't like her" when in fact we've never layed eyes one that person in our lives. We'll be so certain that we wouldn't like a certain person because of who they hang out with, the things they've done in the past, how they look on the outside. In reality it normally has more to do with something like....

 "well one time i was at a ball game and this blonde girl brushed arms with me and didn't say excuse me, then i went to the concession stands and the woman that gave me my pickle smiled and said thank you, come to find out that the concession stand lady was the blonde girls aunt, and well that girl over there is some way related to them, so i'm sure they're all fake and hypocrites in that family so we're not supposed to like her either just to be safe"

 This is SERIOUSLY the way girls work most of the time. In reality the blonde girl that brushed up against you probably wasn't even her, it may have been her purse, therefore she didn't know she was supposed to say sorry. The lady at the concession stand more than likely really meant that smile and thank you that she threw your way... and the other girl you're judging because of conclusions you've jumped too could potentially be your future best friend but... TOO BAD - you missed out.

It ridiculous how judgemental we are. How in today's time we have to watch out for ourselves because it seems that everyone else is doing just that.  I've been guilty of it all. Guilty of being too judgemental, guilty of being too selfish. At some point we just have to find that happy medium. That what I'm currently looking for.  I've been the brat that probably shunned a really nice girl sometime because of a friend that she hung out with. I've also had to deal with people taking advantage of me... i went from being borderline mean, to wayy too nice.

Where am I at? :

I'm still probably too nice, but I know what it feels like to be the target of someones mean judgement. So I try my best, and that's really all that I can do. I like random acts of kindness. But I know that I have to watch my back...

Kudos to you tho, if you've found your happy medium :)

I'm new at this...

I'm Hayli, I've recently been inspired to start a blog so here I am. Lately I have done alot of living and learning. Most days I bother at least one of my friends with a venting session, so for the sake of their sanity I've decided to start letting it all out on here. So followers -- be prepared. You may be in for more than you bargained for :)